I guess I should explain how I'm feeling about that e-mail a little more. Basically, the one thing that I love to do more than anything else just got removed from my life. I don't know what to do. Other than going home occasionally, there is nothing at Brown that I look forward to. I've been miserable about it all day, and last night I felt like crying. I honestly just don't know what the hell to do. I want to slam my fist through a wall or scream or harm small woodland animals or kick my cat or go to Waterfire and sit alone for a long time, I don't know.
I've been talking to some people recently about how I was upset that Brown didn't have the things that I really loved and really cared about - percussion, drumline, drum corps, roller hockey, competition math, anything with music at all, and then some other like home/family/friends/etc... It made me really upset, because people kept saying, "Your interest will change!" Then they laugh or smile and pat you on the back, as if you should be happy of the fact that all the beauty in life is gone.
And I was really angry at them. Who are you to tell me that my interests are fleeting? Or that my passion is so shallow and transitory?
How would you like it if I was at your wedding I stood up during the ceremony and said, "You won't love her in two years"? It's only the light of your life, relax.
I need to talk to my dad.
Peace out.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Your Interests Will Change!
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(Why are you there?)
As in, why did you pick Brown in the first place and why are you still there?
Why don't you just come to rehearsal? We already have 2 kids commuting from URI. Come this Saturday and we'll see if we can work out some carpooling.
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