8AM

I've never had trouble waking up early in my life before. In high school, waking up at 6:37 or so every day seemed like nothing. And I'd fall asleep at 11:30, sometimes as late as 12:30, with almost no problem every night.

What a luxury, man.

I teach 8:00 AM classes three days a week now, and they are killing me. I don't know why, I have literally no idea, but I haven't been able to fall asleep until after 2:00 AM by myself at the absolute earliest since I got those classes assigned to me. Some nights I took some fraction of a sleeping pill because I knew I was going to die in class if I didn't, but some nights I just try on my own, and sometimes I'm up until 3:00 or 4:00 on those nights struggling to fall asleep.

I got a pad for my bed, which didn't really seem to help. Making it colder so that I can use the big comforter does seem to help a little bit, but not really.

Normally I wouldn't really mind. I get to all of my classes on time, even if I feel a little dead. But I feel so exhausted afterward that sometimes I fall asleep, and that's gotten me in trouble twice so far. Once, I fell asleep at 4:00 PM or so and didn't wake up until 7:10 PM, which was ten minutes after I was supposed to be on duty at night study. That sucked. The other time, I just completely slept through a science meeting. I woke up at the tail end of it and rushed in just in time to talk to my boss about my classes' progress, but I still felt terribly stupid about it. I feel like it might have messed up other things, as well, but I can't remember them at the moment.

Sigh.

I know that a schedule change is coming up next week because some teachers have to go out to the sticks for a few weeks to teach some special program. I really, really hope that maybe I'll get moved from 8AMs because I just can't do it. But I'm also really afraid that - since some of the English teachers are leaving - I'll have to teach English again.

And god damn, do I hate teaching English.

Peace out.