Butterflies

A lot of times in the past, when I went to new places and I was surrounded by a lot of new people and a lot of new girls, I'd kind of develop a crush on one or whatever, and I'd get butterflies in my stomach whenever I saw them or talked to them or something like that. And I noticed that that hasn't happened here at all, and I was just wondering why.

It could be because I already have Gina, and I don't need/want anyone/thing else. I know that I definitely had butterflies in my stomach around the end of July when all the exciting things were happening with us, so I know it's still in me and that I felt it recently for her... but it hasn't happened here.

I think another part of it might be because I used to develop crushes on people that I sort of idolized... but now I pretty much idolize everyone. I feel like everyone has so much to teach me and so much to do and so many exciting things and possibilites and oh my god, people are just so good, how could I ever feel more about one than another?

Of course, I do... just not here.

I can't figure out why that is.

All in all, I think that's a good thing.

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I have the word "MAILBOX" scrawled on my arm in thick Sharpie ink. It's been there for a few days. A few people have asked me if it was a tattoo. I didn't know if that was a compliment or not.

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I think I'm wearing my t-shirt inside out.

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I'm glad I wore a shirt tonight.

Peace out.